Sometimes I wonder if it’s wise to show your process from very bad to not so bad. I was looking through my archives (and some posts have broken images because I imported this blog from a Jekyll site), to see where I was a year ago.
Also, I went into my physical archives (to cringe a little) and see my initial sketches. A sure sign that you’re a beginner is that you want validation of everything you do. Like a little kid.
It’s inevitable and whoever is learning to draw or paint, or is writing, acting, dancing, etc, must be aware that it is normal to look for this validation.
Every drawing I make I run into the next room to show it to my husband. He’s patient and lovely, he supports me but sometimes he might say he prefers this to this, and I’ll be crushed because I spent much more time on the second one. But that’s just his taste.
Anyway, I thought it was just me who felt a little childish by drawing and showing everything, but I see we are all like this. In the FB art groups I’m in, everyone shows their work with hesitation and trepidation, we want the likes, the comments, the validation. It feeds our hope.
But lately, I must have had some sort of breakthrough, I’m needing this validation a little less. When I make something there is this new element in my thought process: my creative decision.
Do I like it? Do I want to make another? Do I want to perfect this? Or is it meh… this new element is very welcome into my process. It means I’m clarifying my path. I’m losing the fear of experimentation, I am focusing more on how much it pleases me as oposed as “how similar does this look to the work of that artist that is killing me with their work?”
I think I’m breaking free. Yet I play and I feel really happy when I finally manage to control the water on my brush and make, at last, a pretty flower.
It is possible to go from this:
The first picture is from March 2015, using Koi Sakura watercolors which are not very good. They’re ok for adding some splashes of color but not to actually create a painting.They are way too opaque. And I made those on my watercolor moleskine which, has very weird yellowish paper. The rose I painted on Fabriano Artístico Extra White paper and I used my White Nights watercolors. The Koi Watercolors cost me 30 bucks in 2014, the White Nights.. errr.. let’s say that four times that. But It shows and I’m super happy. I followed Creativebug’s watercolor course and it was so much fun!
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I will be sending you thoughts about art, creativity, talent. The struggles and some of the best links I’ve found to learn certain techniques.
This zip file contains 6 watercolor roses in PNG at 300dpi
They are better used in a light background.